Just minding my biznaz today, lying on the couch taking it easy and all of a sudden I'm bleeding. I'm 9 weeks pregnant and I'm bleeding. This is not good news. I call Dr. C and he asks me if I'm cramping and how heavy the bleeding is. I'm not too crampy, just light period type cramps. The bleeding is red and I'm passing some clots. He tells me if the bleeding gets heavier, I pass any large clots and the cramping gets worse to go to the Emergency Room (conveniently located 2 mins from our house). I try calling your Dad but he is taking his 1st day off in a while to go hiking with his Dad. No cell phone, no worries for him. Just good clean mountain air, while I'm bleeding & freaking out at home. Of all the days!
Luckily your Aunt Jenny lives next door and she comes over to keep me company. About an hour later the bleeding picks up and I pass a large clot. Following instructions I remove the clot from the toilet and place it in a small tupperware container to take with me to the ER. Your Aunt Jenny comes back over and drives me and my clot container to the ER. The cramping and bleeding pick up when we get there. I'm totally devastated. How can this be "it".
My Mom & Dad arrive. It feels like we are back at the hospital waiting for your sister to be born, still. It's so strange, I'm only half there. The rest of me is in that safe place your mind takes you when disaster strikes. We send Grandpa to wait at your Aunts house, your Grandma sticks around with me while I wait for whatever is about it happen.
The ER Doc arrives & briefly looks at my clot sample. I tell her if it's fetal tissue that I'd like for them to keep it for testing for my fertility doctor, he might want that done. She agrees and then they set me up for a pelvic exam. Sweet LORD, the fun never ends with this gal, I think this is what Betty White meant when she says these things (vagina's...I said it) take a pounding. After said pounding, I mean pelvic exam, it's inconclusive. The bleeding seems to be slowing a bit and my cervix is closed. The ER Doc says it could be that the clot I passed was the fetal tissue and now my cervix is closed up, it could be getting ready to open or it could be just bleeding. The ER Doc leaves and I ask the nurse what a typical miscarriage feels like. She says the cramping is usually very painful like labor pains (mine was not like labor cramps at all) and the bleeding would be very heavy, not so much like what I was having. But it was hard to say.
We waited around for an ultrasound to see what was happening in there and if you were still in there...alive. About 4 1/2 hours after I arrived it's go time.. A long & squeaky wheeled ride down the hall to the ultrasound room reveals You, wiggling about in my uterus completely oblivious to the subchorionic hematoma driving your Mother to her absolute wits end. Your tiny arms and legs are doing a very Dad like dance while the hematoma sits right on top of my cervix causing a literal bloody mess. The baby looks great, measuring right on target they say. The hematoma is going to cause more bleeding but it seems to be in an ok position as far as safety for the baby goes. Wait and see they say. She wheels me back to my ER room and I give my Mom the thumbs up. I tell her that if this kid makes it out alive we should use the name of Danger. Your Dad calls me on his way home to talk about his hike. Totally unaware of our trip to the ER and the bloody mess. He realizes quickly he won't be hiking again for a long time. Just another day in the life of you & your pregnant Mama. Who loves ya? I do! I do!
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