All my marbles

  Soooooo I’m really starting to wonder if this whole bleeding/spotting thing is going to go on for the rest of this pregnancy. Am I really going to be one of those ladies who has to deal with this obnoxious, nail biting, infuriating, anxiety producing side effect for the whole nine months? Don’t I have enough worry on my plate? Will the pregnancy God’s have any mercy on me at all? I’ll be 17 weeks pregnant tomorrow and I’m hoping that the random kicks I’ve felt from my sweet little “Danger” over the last few weeks start picking up soon so I can get a more regular reminder that “Hey Mom, I’m here! I’m ok! Did you feel THAT? *Bam!* How about THAT? *Sha Zam!* ” Sometimes it feels as though I am hanging onto my sanity by just a teeny tiny thread. And yet from all of the books that I’ve read on the subject of being pregnant again after a full term loss, I seem to be riiiight on track with my thought patterns and OCD like behavior. So maybe I won’t loose all my marbles after all!

  On a lighter note we get to have our anatomy scan in less than 3 weeks! While I am super excited to find out if you are a girl or a boy, I’m definitely more concerned with how your heart and other major organs are developing. I’m also very curious to see if that stinkin’, no good, ugly hematoma has gone away. I’m hoping, praying and thinking positive thoughts that it shall be gone by then and that you will be healthy and happy as can be! Love you so much my lil schanookems~Mama Bear